:: bitchpix ::

:: Sunday, November 14, 2004 ::

[Intro]
{Puke noises}
There I go...
Thinkin' of you again...

[Chorus]
You don't know how sick you make me,
You make me fuckin' sick to my stomach,
Everytime I think of you I puke.
You must just not know (uououououououoh),
You may not think you do but you do,
Everytime I think of you I puke

[Verse 1]
I was gonna take the time to sit down and write you a little poem,
But off of the dome would probably be a little more,
More suitable for this type of song (woah).
I got a million reasons off the top of my head that I can think of,
Sixteen bars is ain't enough to put some ink to,
So fuck it, I'ma start right here, I'll just be briefer,
'bout to rattle off some other reasons.
I knew I shouldn't go and get another tattoo,
Of you on my arm, but what do I go and do?
I go and get another one, now I got two (uouououououoh).
Now I'm sittin here, with your name on my skin,
I can't believe I went and did that stupid shit again,
My next grilfriend, now her name's gotta be Kim, shit (eyeyeyeyeyet).
If you only knew how much I hated you,
For every-motherfuckin'-thing you ever put us through,
Then I wouldn't be standin' here cryin'over you (uouououououououoh).

[Chorus]

[Verse 2]
I was gonna take the time to sit down and write you a little letter,
But I thought a song would probably be a little better,
Instead of a letter, that you probably just shred up (yeah).
I stumbled on your picture yesterday and it made stop and think of,
How much of a waste it'd be for me to put some ink to,
A stupid piece of paper, I'd rather let you see how,
Much I fuckin' hate you in a freestyle.
You're a fuckin' cokehead and slut I hope you fuckin' die,
I hope you get to hell and satan sticks a needle in your eye,
I hate your fuckin' guts, you fuckin' slut I hope you die (dieieieieieieie).
But please don't get me wrong, I'm not bitter or mad,
It's not that I still love you, it's not 'cause I want you back,
It's just that when I think of you it makes me wanna yack (aeaeaeaeaeK).
But what else can I do, I haven't got a clue,
Now I guess I just move on, I have no choice but to,
But everytime I think of you now all I wanna do
Is puke (uououououououoK).

[Chorus]

[Outro]
{Puke noises again :) }

Fuckin' bitch

{Dedicated to my ex...}



:: sinn 2:16 AM [+] ::
...

Intro:

(Kids: I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America..

(BOOM)

(Kids: And to the Republic..)

Eminem: People..

(Kids: For which it stands..)

Eminem: Hahaha..

(Kids: One nation under God.. Indivisible..)

Eminem: It feels so good to be back!

Verse 1:

I scrutinize every word, memorize every line
I spit it once, refuel, re-energize and rewind
I give sight to the blind, my insight's through the mind
I exercise my right to express when I feel it's time
It's just all in your mind - what you interpret it as
I say to fight, you take it as I'ma whip someone’s ass
If you don’t understand, don’t even bother to ask
A father who has grown up with a father-less past
Who has blown up now to rap phenomenon
That has, or at least shows, no difficulty multi-taskin' and juggling both
Perhaps mastered-his-craft slash entrepreneur
Who has helped launch a few more rap-bags
Who’s had a few obstacles thrown his way
Through the last half of his career
Typical manure, moving past that
Mister kiss-his-ass-crack, he’s a class-act
Rubber-band man, yeah, he just snaps back

Chorus:

Come along, follow me, as I lead through the darkness
As I provide just enough spark that we need to proceed
Carry on, give me hope, give me strength
Come with me, and I wont steer you wrong
Put your faith in your trust, as I guide us through the fog
To the light at the end of the tunnel we gon’ fight
We gon’ charge, we gon’ stomp
We gon’ march through the swamp
We gon’ mosh through the marsh
Take us right through the doors
Come on..

Verse 2:

All the people up top, on the side and the middle
Come together, let's all form this swamp just a little
Just let it gradually build, from the front to the back
All you can see is a sea of people, some white and some black
No matter what color, all that matters we're gathered together
To celebrate for the same cause, no matter the weather
If it rains, let it rain
Yeah, the wetter the better
They ain’t gon’ stop us - they can't
We're stronger now, more then ever
They tell us "No", we say "Yeah"
They tell us "Stop", we say "Go"
Rebel with a rebel yell
Raise hell - we gon’ let em know
Stomp, push, shove, mush..
Fuck Bush
Until they bring our troops home, c'mon, just..

Chorus:

Come along, follow me as I lead through the darkness
As I provide just enough spark that we need to proceed
Carry on, give me hope, give me strength
Come with me, and I wont steer you wrong
Put your faith in your trust, as I guide us through the fog
To the light at the end of the tunnel we gon’ fight
We gon’ charge, we gon’ stomp
We gon' march through the swamp
We gon' mosh through the marsh
Take us right through the doors
Come on..

Verse 3:

Imagine it pourin’, it's rainin’ down on us
Moshpits outside the oval office
Someone’s tryin to tell us something
Maybe this is God just sayin' we're responsible
For this monster - this coward that we have empowered
This is Bin Laden
Look at his head noddin’
How could we allow something like this without pumpin' our fists
Now, this is our final hour
Let me be the voice, and your strength and your choice
Let me simplify the rhyme just to amplify the noise
Try to amplify it, times it, and multiply it by sixteen million
People are equal at this high pitch
Maybe we can reach al CIAda through my speech
Let the president answer our high anarchy
Strap him with a AK-47, let him go fight his own war
Let him impress daddy that way
No more blood for oil, we got our own battles to fight on our own soil
No more psychological warfare to trick us to thinking that we ain’t loyal
If we don’t serve our own country, we’re patronizing our hero
Look in his eyes, its all lies
The stars and stripes, have been swiped
Washed out and wiped and replaced with his own face
Mosh now or die
If I get sniped tonight, you’ll know why
‘Cuz I told you to fight

Chorus:

Come along, follow me as I lead through the darkness
As I provide just enough spark that we need to proceed
Carry on, give me hope, give me strength
Come with me, and I wont steer you wrong
Put your faith in your trust, as I guide us through the fog
To the light at the end of the tunnel we gon' fight
We gon' charge, we gon' stomp
We gon' march through the swamp
We gon' mosh through the marsh
Take us right through the doors
Come on

Outro:

Eminem: And as we proceed to mosh through this desert storm.. in these closing statements, if they should argue, let us beg to differ.. as we set aside our differences, and assemble our own army to disarm this weapon of mass destruction that we call our president for the present.. and mosh for the future of our next generation.. to speak and be heard.. Mr President.. Mr Senator..

(Kids: Hear us, hear us?.. Hahaha)


:: sinn 2:13 AM [+] ::
...

fighter

After all you put me through
You'd think I'd dispise you
But in the end I wanna thank you
'Cause you made that much stronger

Well I thought I knew you, thinking that you were true
Guess I, I couldn't trust called your bluff, time is up
'cause I've Had enough
You were there by my side, always down for the ride
But your joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out in shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do,
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'cause it

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

oh oh oh, ooh yeah yeah yeah, uh uh

Never saw it coming,
All of your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I'd realized your game
I heard you're going round
Playin' the victim now
But don't even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes your wanting to HURT me
But that won't work anymore, no more, uh uh, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'cause it

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I know
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
YOU WON'T STOP ME

I am a fighter and I (fighter and I)
I ain't gon stop (I ain't gon stop)
There is no turning back
I'VE HAD ENOUGH

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Thought I would forget but I
I remember
Yes, I remember
I'll remember

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter


:: sinn 10:01 PM [+] ::
...

Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is you
and the reason is you
and the reason is you


I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

:: sinn 9:54 PM [+] ::
...

SOUR TIMES


To pretend no one can find,
The fallacies of morning rose,
Forbidden fruit, hidden eyes,
Courtesies that I despise in me
Take a ride, take a shot now.

‘Cause nobody loves me,
It's true,
Not like you do.

Covered by the blind belief,
That fantasies of sinful screens,
Bear the facts, assume the dye,
End the vows no need to lie, enjoy,
Take a ride, take a shot now.

‘Cause nobody loves me,
It's true,
Not like you do.

Who oo am I, what and why?
‘Cause all I have left is my memories of yesterday,
Ohh these sour times.

‘Cause nobody loves me,
It's true,
Not like you do.

After time the bitter taste,
Of innocence decent or race,
Scattered seed, buried lives,
Mysteries of our disguise revolve,
Circumstance will decide.

‘Cause nobody loves me,
It's true,
Not like you do

‘Cause nobody loves me,
It's true,
Not like you

‘Cause nobody loves me,
It's true,
Not like you do


:: sinn 12:25 PM [+] ::
...

BEAUTIFUL


IF I WAS BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
OH THE THINGS I WOULD DO
THOSE NOT SO BLESSED WOULD BE CRYING OUT MURDER
AND I'D JUST LAUGH AND GET AWAY WITH IT TOO
LIKE YOU DO

IF I WAS BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
I WOULD NEVER BE AT FAULT
I'D WALK IN THE RAIN BETWEEN RAIN DROPS
BRINGING TRAFFIC TO A HALT

BUT THAT WOULD NEVER BE
THAT WOULD NEVER NEVER BE
'CAUSE I'M NOT BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME
IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME

IF I WAS BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
I'D BE QUICK TO ASSUME
THEY'D DO ANYTHING TO PLEASE ME WHY NOT
I SEE THEIR REACTION WHEN YOU WALK INTO A ROOM

BUT THAT WOULD NEVER BE
THAT WOULD NEVER NEVER BE
'CAUSE I'M NOT BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME
IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME

IF I WAS BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU I'D HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS
ALL FIGHTING FOR MY TIME TO BE NEXT IN LINE
SO IF I HURT ONE I WOULDN'T HAVE TO MAKE AMENDS

BUT THAT WOULD NEVER BE
THAT WOULD NEVER NEVER BE
'CAUSE I'M NOT BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME
IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME


:: sinn 12:16 PM [+] ::
...

FREAK ON A LEASH

Something takes a part of me
Something lost and never seen
Everytime I start to believe
Something's raped and taken from me...from me
Life's gotta always be messing with me (You wanna see the light)
Can't they chill and let me be free (So do I)
Can't I take away all this pain (You wanna see the light)
I try to every night, all in vain...in vain

Sometimes I cannot take this place
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste
Sometimes I cannot feel my face
You'll never see me fall from grace

Something takes a part of me
You and I were meant to be
A cheap fuck for me to lay
Something takes a part of me

Feeling like a freak on a leash (You wanna see the light)
Feeling like I have no release (So do I)
How many times have I felt diseased (You wanna see the light)
Nothing in my life is free...is free

Sometimes I cannot take this place
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste
Sometimes I cannot feel my face
You'll never see me fall from grace

Something takes a part of me
You and I were meant to be
A cheap fuck for me to lay
Something takes a part of me

Boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
Go!

So...fight! something on the...
Fight...somethings they fight
So! something on the...
Fight...somethings they fight
Fight! something on the...
No...somethings they fight
Fight! something on the...
Fight...somethings they fight

Something takes a part of me
You and I were meant to be
A cheap fuck for me to lay
Something takes a part of me
Part of me
Part of me
Part of me

:: sinn 12:15 PM [+] ::
...

Figured You Out
I like your pants around your feet
And I like the dirt that's on your knees
And I like the way you still say please
While you're looking up at me
You're like my favorite damn disease

And I love the places that we go
And I love the people that you know
And I love the way you can't say no
Too many long lines in a row
I love the powder on your nose

And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
(Now I did, you wonder why)
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
(Now I did, you wonder why)

I like the freckles on your chest
And I like the way you like me best
And I like the way you're not impressed
While you put me to the test
I like the white stains on your dress

I love the way you pass the check
And I love the good times that you wreck
(...good times that you wreck)***
And I love your lack of self respect
While you're passed out on the deck
I love my hands around your neck

And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
(Now I did, you wonder why)
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
(Now I did, you wonder why)
(Why not before, you never tried)
(Gone for good, and this is it)

I like your pants around your feet
And I like the dirt that's on your knees
And I like the way you still say please
While you're looking up at me
You're like my favorite damn disease

And I hate the places that we go
And I hate the people that you know
(...the people that you know)***
And I hate the way you can't say no
Too many long lines in a row
I hate the powder on your nose

And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
(Now I did, you wonder why)
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
(Now I did, you wonder why)
(Why not before, you never tried)
(Gone for good, and this is it)


:: sinn 12:10 PM [+] ::
...

Cry Little Sister

The last fire will rise
Behind those eyes
Black house will rock
Blind boys dont lie
Immortal fear
That voice so clear
Through broken walls
That scream I hear

Cry little sister (thou shall not fall)
Come come to your brother (thou shall not die)
Unchain me sister (thou shall not fear)
Love is with your brother (thou shall not kill)

Blue mascarade
Strangers look up
When will they learn this lonliness?
Temptation heat
Beats like a drum
Deep in your veins

I will not lie little sister (thou shall not fall)
Come come to your brother (thou shall not die)
Unchain me sister (thou shall not fear)
Love is with your brother (thou shall not kill)

My shangrila
I cant forget
Why you were mine
I need you now

Cry little sister (thou shall not fall)
Come come to your brother (thou shall not die)
Unchain me sister (thou shall not fear)
Love is with your brother (thou shall not kill)

Cryyyyy little sister (thou shall not fall)
Come come to your brother (thou shall not die)
Unchain me sister (thou shall not fear)
Love is with your brother (thou shall not kill)
Cryyyyyyy little sister (thou shall not kill)


:: sinn 7:30 PM [+] ::
...

Underneath It All


There's times where I want somethin' more
Someone more like me
There's times when this dress rehearsal
Seems incomplete
But, you see the colors in me like no one else
And behind your dark glasses you're...
You're somethin' else

Chorus:
You're really lovely
Underneath it all
D'You want to love me
Underneath it all
I'm really lucky
Underneath it all
You're really lovely

You know some real bad tricks
And you need some discipline
But, lately you've been tryin' real hard
And givin' me your best
And, you give me the most gorgeous sleep
That I've ever had
And when it's really bad
I guess it's not that bad

(Repeat Chorus)

So many moons that we have seen
Stumblin' back next to me
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me better
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me betta
Betta... betta...

Lady Saw:
For real
'Cuz underneath it all,
You are my real Prince Charmin'
Like the heat from the fire
You were always burnin'
And each time you're around
My body keeps callin'
For your touch
Your kisses and your sweet romancin'
There's an underside to you
That so many adore
Aside from your tempa
Everything else secure
You're good for me, baby
Oh that, I'm sure
'Cuz over and over again
I want more

Gwen:
You've used up all your coupons
And all you've got left is me
And somehow I'm full of forgiveness
I guess it's meant to be

(Repeat Chorus 'til end)



:: sinn 12:29 PM [+] ::
...

Honestly Ok

I just want to feel safe in my own skin,
I just want to be happy again
I just want to feel deep in my own world
But I'm so lonely
I don't even want to be with myself anymore
On a different day,
if I was safe in my own skin,
then I wouldn't feel lost and
so frightened
But this is today and I'm lost in my own skin
And I'm so lonely
I don't even want to be with myself anymore
I just want to feel safe in my own skin,
I just want to be happy again.



:: sinn 5:46 AM [+] ::
...

Bloodflowers


"this dream never ends" you said
"this feel never goes
the time will never come to slip away"
"this wave never breaks" you said
"this sun never sets again
these flowers will never fade"
"this world never stops" you said
"this wonder never leaves
the time will never come to say goodbye"
"this tide never turns" you said
"this night never falls again
these flowers will never die"

never die
never die
these flowers will never die

"this dream always ends" i said
"this feeling always goes
the time always comes to slip away"
"this wave always breaks" i said
"this sun always sets again
and these flowers will always fade"
"this world always stops" i said
"this wonder always leaves
the time always comes to say goodbye"
"this tide always turns" i said
"this night always falls again
and these flowers will always die"

always die
always die
these flowers will always die

between you and me
it's hard to ever really know
who to trust
how to think
what to believe
between me and you
it's hard to ever really know
who to choose
how to feel
what to do

never fade
never die
you give me flowers of love

always fade
always die
i let fall flowers of blood



:: sinn 2:59 AM [+] ::
...

Siamese Twins


i chose an eternity of this
like falling angels
the world disappeared
laughing into the fire
is it always like this?
flesh and blood and the first kiss
the first colours
the first kiss

we writhed under a red light
voodoo smile
siamese twins
a girl at the window looks at me for an hour
then everything falls apart
broken inside me
it falls apart

the walls and the ceiling move in time
push a blade into my hands
slowly up the stairs
and into the room
is it always like this?

dancing in my pocket
worms eat my skin
she glows and grows
with arms outstretched
her legs around me...

in the morning i cried

leave me to die
you won't remember my voice
i walked away and grew old
you never talk
we never smile
i scream
you're nothing
i don't need you any more
you're nothing

it fades and spins
fades and spins...

sing out loud
we all die!!!
laughing into the fire...

is it always like this?


:: sinn 2:58 AM [+] ::
...

Cold


scarred
your back was turned
curled like an embryo
take another face
you will be kissed again
i was cold as i mouthed the words
and crawled across the mirror

i wait
await the next breath
your name
like ice into my heart

a shallow grave
a monument to the ruined age
ice in my eyes
and eyes like ice don't move
screaming at the moon
another past time

your name
like ice into my heart

everything as cold as life
can no-one save you?
everything
as cold as silence
and you will never say a word

your name
like ice into my heart


:: sinn 2:57 AM [+] ::
...

Pictures of You


i've been looking so long at these pictures of you
that i almost believe that they're real
i've been living so long with my pictures of you
that i almost believe that the pictures are
all i can feel

remembering
you standing quiet in the rain
as i ran to your heart to be near
and we kissed as the sky fell in
holding you close
how i always held close in your fear
remembering
you running soft through the night
you were bigger and brighter and wider than snow
and screamed at the make-believe
screamed at the sky
and you finally found all your courage
to let it all go

remembering
you fallen into my arms
crying for the death of your heart
you were stone white
so delicate
lost in the cold
you were always so lost in the dark
remembering
you how you used to be
slow drowned
you were angels
so much more than everything
hold for the last time then slip away quietly
open my eyes
but i never see anything

if only i'd thought of the right words
i could have held on to your heart
if only i'd thought of the right words
i wouldn't be breaking apart
all my pictures of you

looking so long at these pictures of you
but i never hold on to your heart
looking so long for the words to be true
but always just breaking apart
my pictures of you

there was nothing in the world
that i ever wanted more
than to feel you deep in my heart
there was nothing in the world
that i ever wanted more
than to never feel the breaking apart
all my pictures of you


:: sinn 2:57 AM [+] ::
...

Untitled


hopelessly drift
in the eyes of the ghost again
down on my knees
and my hands in the air again
pushing my face in the memory of you again
but i never know if it's real
never know how i wanted to feel
never quite said what i wanted to say to you
never quite managed the words to explain to you
never quite knew how to make them believable
and now the time has gone
another time undone
hopelessly fighting the devil
futility
feeling the moster
climb deeper inside of me
feeling him gnawing my heart away
hungrily
i'll never lose this pain
never dream of you again


:: sinn 2:56 AM [+] ::
...

Lovesong


whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am home again
whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am whole again

whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am young again
whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am fun again

however far away
i will always love you
however long i stay
i will always love you
whatever words i say
i will always love you
i will always love you

whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am free again
whenever i'm alone with you
you make me feel like i am clean again

however far away
i will always love you
however long i stay
i will always love you
whatever words i say
i will always love you
i will always love you



:: sinn 2:55 AM [+] ::
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